Blog a day – 2

This is what I went through after deciding to fill out a job application online.
This isn’t all I wrote, but by the end of the half hour, I was willing to complete the application without the usual dark, cynical pessimism that would plague me in the past.

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Do I really think someone is going to hire me at my age?
Do I really think that I can do what no one else can do?
Do I think I have the capability to fulfill such a highly responsible position. Do I think I am qualified?
Do I know how much I will be responsible for?
Is this a job I really want?
Is this a job I could possibly get?
I think it will be easy, do I think I have the skills?
What kind of skills will it require?
Will that be all that is necessary?
Am I being real?
Will I be able to save face?
Do I have any face to save?
Do I have any life goals that would justify either applying or even getting this job?
Do I have any chance at getting that job?
Would I hire me, and why?
I am a wonderful person and every one likes me and knows how competent I can be, if I know the job parameters, if the responsibilities are clear, and there are functional ways to keep track of the projects, the contractors and the progress.
I can easily find the work ethics, abilities, skills, experience that will make me all the more competitive?
There are probably other people more capable than I am, most likely, and they are probably applying in all likelihood.
In all the world there are the greatest and the most sublime.The world is an idea in the mind of God.
The world is an authorized opportunist is the world as I know it. What do I mean by that.?
How I am going to write down my impressions for the day, my adventure for the day, my absolute register of self confidence, my prime objective for the day is missing.?
When all the world is a stage, when all the world is a bowl of cherries, why do I focus on the pits.
What am I trying to express today?
Do I want to put this in a blog?
How can I grow up and get serious?
How many people do I think will really want to read the meanderings of an average American male?
How can I face the facts?
How can I tell that my focus is where it should b?
How can I be sure of myself, able to be as convincing as I possibly need to be.?

How can I be ready, willing and able?
What in all the world is happening and what can I do about it?
What in all the world matters?
What in all the world is more incredible than increasing my self confidence, my reality acceptance?
What in all the world will I be able to do?
How can I do that well?
How can we know what we can and can’t do well until we try to do it?
This is probably the longest half an hour I will ever experience?

is it really busy out there?
is it really hectic out there?
is it really possible to make any progress today?
is it right for me?
Am I right for others?
Are these questions I can share on a blog?

Do I know what I am doing?
Do I know what I want?
Do I know the answers?
Do I know the questions?
Do I know what matters? to me, to them?
Do I know what works?
Do I think I can stay awake through a job like that.?

Do I what I need when I need it?
Do I know what matters?
Do I know that ?
Do I know this ?
Do I know them?
Will they know me better than I know them?
Do I know what matters the most ?

I don’t know them like they will know me.
Can I stay focused on one thing at a time ?
Can I bring my attention back to the appropriate prime discussion or topic right now at will.?

Do I get easily distracted, can I reclaim my attention from a myriad distractions at will, are these the questions that they will ask?
How can I anticipate all of the questions they will ask and be ready to answer them with genuine sincerity ?
Can I be promoted at some point, can I be ready for all of that?
Can I be ready for all of this?
Can I be prepared?
Am I qualified?
Do I have all the experience they want, ?
How can I make or create a convincing presentation, ?
How can I arrive with the most positive attitude, outlook, demeanor?
When will it matter?, When will it work?
When will it happen ?
When will it be that way?
When will we see what’s happening?
When will we manage to make it all happen
When will we work it out?
How can and will we work on all levels
When will we work on that level?